How The Holy Spirit Transformed My Motherhood Journey

I became a mother at the age of 26, married just over a year. Excited and scared, I had no idea what I was doing, but I was so grateful for the gift of motherhood.

One month before my 30th birthday, I was blessed with my second daughter. I remember turning 30 and holding my one month baby in my arms, breastfeeding and soaking in her sweetness. A year later, my life took a sharp turn as I found myself navigating a separation, a new reality as a co-parenting mom of two.

Fast forward seven years, and I was blessed with a third child with a bountiful new marriage, still learning, still growing.

As you can imagine, my journey as a mother has been filled with highs and lows. The emotional rollercoaster, the trials, the triumphs, and the overwhelming moments have shaped me. If I had to divide my motherhood journey into two chapters, they would be: The Road of My Own and The Road of the Holy Spirit.

The Road of My Own

This road started with the birth of my first child and continued until my third child. I lived mothering through the lens of my own fears and insecurities. I often responded defensively, and fear of failure drove much of my actions. I was overwhelmed, tired, and questioning my ability to "get it right." I found myself mothering from a place of depletion.

But over time, God began to stir something within me — a longing for more. I didn’t want to mother from a place of fear anymore. I began to crave a deeper connection with my calling.

The Road of the Holy Spirit

Then came a pivotal moment. One night, my husband was finishing dinner in the kitchen, and I was sitting with the kids at the table when I suddenly felt the need to lie down. Within moments, my entire right side locked up, and I lost control. It led to a week in the hospital, and after several tests, I was diagnosed with non-epileptic seizures, likely caused by stress.

Months earlier, my family had moved across the country, and my two older daughters chose to stay behind in California with their father. At first, I thought it would be temporary. I thought they would want to be with me soon enough, but as time passed, I began to feel the weight of their absence. I became ill repeatedly, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

As I sat in the quiet of my own recovery, I found myself questioning God. Why did you lead us here and separate me from my girls? I was hurt and confused. But that’s when the Holy Spirit began teaching me.

The Holy Spirit's Guidance

The Holy Spirit revealed to me that my power as a mother didn’t lie in my physical presence. Yes, I longed to be with my children, but the most powerful thing I could do for them was pray. I was reminded that while I’m their earthly mother, in the spirit, they are His children first.

He also showed me His sovereignty in my illness. It forced me to slow down, reflect, and prioritize my own well-being. I was constantly doing, never being. I had neglected myself in the process of "mothering," and this time of stillness was God’s way of calling me to return to Him.

Motherhood Produced by the Holy Spirit

In this season, I realized I had been mothering in error — from a place of self-sufficiency, relying on my own strength and wisdom. But true motherhood isn’t about what we can do in our own power; it’s about being empowered by the Spirit.

The Holy Spirit helped me see motherhood as more than a task to complete or a role to perform. It is a divine calling — a partnership with God in raising His children. The road of motherhood is not about doing it all on our own, but about surrendering to His will, being led by His Spirit, and allowing Him to produce fruit in our lives.

Will You Take the Journey With Me Towards Biblical Motherhood?

Motherhood produced by the Spirit isn’t always easy, but it is always rewarding. Will you allow the Holy Spirit to guide you on your own journey of motherhood? Will you trust Him to produce in you the wisdom, grace, and strength needed to mother in His way?

This journey may take us down unexpected roads, but if we allow the Spirit to lead, we will never walk alone.